Katy Perry talks about how she considered suicide after split from husband
It's easy to think of Katy Perry as happy-go-lucky. You would mistakenly think she leads a charmed life — known as the first woman, and second artist following Michael Jackson, in the 55-year history of the Billboard Hot 100 to have five songs from the same album hit number one.
But just because she smiles for the paparazzi and dances around stage in skimpy animal print outfits during her shows, no one knew what she was dealing with at the end of the day.
After her break-up from comedian Russell Brand, when she was laying on the bathroom floor, she was a completely different Katy. After all, what can you expect when her husband of 14 months, who promised to love her "for better and for worse," told her he wanted a divorce through a text message of all things. I would be pretty devastated too.
Sometimes it's easy to forget that celebrities are humans too. But the black-haired beauty proved that, just like many people have felt at one time or another, she too knows what it feels like to second guess life and wonder if it would be better just to end it.
Perry recently admitted to Billboard that, after her relationship fell apart, she considered suicide.
"I asked myself, 'Do I want to endure? Should I continue living?'" she told Billboard's Ryan McGinley.
McGinley said in the article that, during the interview, Perry bared zero resemblance to the cotton candied persona she had crafted for herself. She wore no makeup, her hair was pulled back, she wore black Adidas workout tights and a faded hoodie over a "Christian Death Metal" T-shirt.
Her album PRISM, due out Oct. 22, is obviously much darker than her previous albums. In her new song "By the Grace of God," she sings,"Thought I wasn't enough, found I wasn't so tough. Laying on the bathroom floor. We were living on a front line and I felt the fall was on mine. Couldn't take it anymore."
She could have easily kept up the illusion that fans came to know her as. But the fact that she confesses these suicidal thoughts made me respect her.
I think many people can relate to these feelings. After the end of a relationship you thought was going to last forever, it's difficult not to wonder what you did wrong — even if it's not your fault at all. It's difficult to believe that things will get better.
I think those going through what she did should make this song their anthem and learn from the words that end the song:
"I know I am enough, possible to be loved
It was none about me
Now I have to raise above
Let the Universe call the bluff
Yeah, the truth will set you free
By the grace of God
There was no other way
I picked myself back up
I knew I had to say
I put one foot in front of the other and
Looked in the mirror and decided to stay
Wasn't gonna let love take me out that way."